By Jewel S P
I once thought a diagnosis of Schizophrenia or Bipolar was almost as bad as a death sentence, socially, emotionally, and personally. I was very apprehensive about its impact spiritually as well. Did this mean I had done something so terrible that God would want to take my mind?
As a Christian I believe in confessing it is word and affirming what the Bible says about me. I said the same confession frequently; “I have the mind of Christ, I hold the thoughts, feelings, and purpose of His heart”. Now with the diagnosis of Schizoaffective Disorder, that seemed far from the truth and I was very confused.
Two years ago hospitalizations were frequent. It seemed like my own mind was attacking me and I depended on doctors and medicine to keep me sane. I expressed to God that this was backwards and I should be depending on him solely for my sanity. I was barely hanging on and felt that God had failed me in this area.
Then one day when reading the Bible-the New Testament, God pointed out that Jesus travelled with Luke – a physician. I immediately repented because I realized that even He used medicine and doctors as a means of restoring me as well as His power.
I have not been hospitalized for over a year, I am able to work from home for “Unveiled Treasures” – an online Christian book store, and the store’s name speaks to how God sees me – as a yet unveiled treasure.
I thank the Nia Project for giving me back my self-respect, self-esteem, and most of all hope. My faith in God is renewed as I confess His word over my life and especially my mind. I am grateful for the two (medicine/doctors and spirituality) working together to give me a new lease on life. I am ecstatic about where God will lead me and look forward to working with the Nia Project until my whole being is restored. Once again, Thank you Nia, for giving me my dignity back.